Is it fun being...........me? Think again!

I had people telling me "I bet it's fun being you". And to the point where i'd ask, "Why?"
"Cuz you never have problems!".


Okay people, listen up! The reason being so, is cuz i don't look for problems.

Where in fact, i actually do have problems. It's just i never show people that i do. Besides, i seldom take problems seriously. Every time i have a problem, i'd say, "Ahh..it's just one of those problems. Besides, every one else faces the same thing". So my task? Find the solution. That's it!

Okay..it does not sound that easy aite?

Okay, here are my problems.

I'm 22 and i still cook by referring to my Cook Book. I'm totally not creative when it comes to cooking. If my mom teaches me to put 1 teaspoon of salt into a dish, then i'd put exactly 1 teaspoon of salt. I wouldn't dare to put fewer or more, afraid the dish would tastes different. I can bake, but i can only bake a chocolate cake. With the help from Mama for the chocolate coating and filling, of course. Although, whenever my family members need a drink, they'd surely look for me. My sister's favourite quote: Kakak...nak air! My mom's: Nabila, buat air. My brother's: Kak, buat air kak. And my dad's: Nabila, masak air. Which...u understand rite? Make him a 3in1 Coffee Mix, his favourite.

My Cook Book.

The runaway bride.

I'm at the age where most of my friends are already married. And i'm sooo...not ready for marriage, just yet. With who? Where am i gonna live? What kind of house i'll be staying? What job does my 'husband' works? Are we gonna be happy? My parents keep telling me, the secret to marriage success (for a wife) is to take care of their husband's belly. Which refers to the food we serve. If a wife does not know how to cook, then the probability for a marriage to last long is rather thin. So that is my problem. How can i feed my husband when i can't even cook well? My husband can't go for Masak Merah, Masak Kicap, Telur Dadar Mayonis, Sayur Campur, Sayur Kangkong, Sayur Kacang Buncis or Instant Dishes everyday right? Maggi perhaps? That's why nowadays, we hear husbands playing foul games with their wife by having skandals. Even having a secret second wife! These cases terrify me.
That's why i'm not ready.When shall i be ready then? God knows when. But i'm working on it. At least before i reach 25. And if i have a catch by that time.

messy vs neat

My mom always complain that i can't keep a house clean. But my friends always say i'm the neat sort. Well, Mama. It's cuz at home i have you and Papa. Sorry for burdening you guys. But if i live on my own, i keep things tidy. I promise! If you don't believe me, check out the house i live in, in Dungun. I may not be the daughter you'd proudly tell your friends, "My daughter wakes up early morning, sweeps the whole house, do the laundry, wipes the furniture, and makes breakfast for the whole family".
See the problem i have? I can't even make my parents proud. Allegedly, not to show off. Cuz i still wanna be their little daughter. My parents always brag that their children never grows up. (*squek* Not in front of you guys~).

kebaboom!

I always have problem with my studies. Especially when it comes to accounting and economic subjects. It's like urghh...gross! (But like it or not..i've managed to pull through 3 years of facing those subjects already. Just need to steady myself for another year in Bachelor studies. The problem i face here is, due to the fact that these subjects are not my best of friends, it always contribute to the lack of my CGPAs'. urghhh...gross. And because of these subjects, i failed in gaining a 3.5 in certain semesters in Diploma. It's not that i really loathe these subjects. I worked my heart out each time, but just didn't hit the target i set. I really salute those taking up accounting and economic subjects in uni. Well, here i am taking up Managerial Economics subject for shortcourse. It's actually next sem's subject, carried forward. I'd rather face the subject for 1 and a half month, (even if it includes going to its class everyday) than having it through for 4 months. But how am i going to get good grades if i have dislikes in a subject?
Every time the exam results are released, and there is a dissatisfaction, i would blame this and that. Whereupon it was my own fault for taking things slightly. I should've known the subject isn't my thing, then i should've struggled twice the harder.



Those are among the problems i have. Personal problems to be exact. (Now no man would want to marry me). Boo-hoo.

Among other things i tend to avoid are:

U're blue dude!

• Boyfriends: i wouldn't have to worry about spending my money on top-ups everyday, no jealousy, no hatred feelings, no worry of having to say Good nite everyday before going to sleep, no Good Morning. Dah mandi? Dah makan? Buat apa tu?, no sulking, no persuading..bla3. Conclusion: no worries. I hate seeing my friends suffer, crying their heart out every night for something their boyfriends did. I'm not saying that having a boyfriend is a burden, but at least being me for the time being, it's already worthwhile. But if i was going to meet a somebody, then it's fate. I'm only expressing my P.O.V as for today.
• Hanging out with the wrong people: This, i totally am cautious. Cuz friends actually make up who you are. I avoid from mingling around with social people, drug-addicts and bad people (if u get what i mean). Not to discriminate them, but because i understand me! Not to say that i'm easily influenced, but i'm the sort of person who wants to hang out with friends, and will feel left out if i don't hang around much with them. Therefore, avoidance is better than cure. I wouldn't want to be in those groups. Na-a-ah~

The smart-looking bad people

• Blacklisted student: I'm trying my very best to be a clean student all my life. No bad reputation at all. (Until last semester, gotten my first summons for parking..urghhh). I am a bit choosy when it comes to choosing group members/partners for an assignment. I wouldn't want to have a group member who could do nothing but wait for a job being served. And yet, not capable of doing so. Slap u man! These sort of people don't deserve the marks the other group members gained for. Nor does the group members deserve bad marks for this person's fault. Therefore, it is wise to choose the right people for your group. Good reputation needs to be preserved. Which may lead to good results. Thus, clean student!

This is not me. 

That's all for today folks.

P/S: I feel like slapping this one person, for ruining the smiles and laughter off my friend's face. 

P/S/S: Boyfriends out there. Please don't break your girls' heart. Even if you no longer have feelings for her, break up the good way. Be professional will ya? Otherwise, Allah the Almighty is always just and fair. Aren't you scared of getting paid-back? 

An ex is not equivalent to an enemy.

Somehow i felt like talking about my *koff* ex-boyfriend here. I was never the sort of person who talks much about her personal life. Heck, i don't really have that much followers here. So guess i could wikileak a lil'.

OK..before i move on.. I soo.....hope nobody in particular would read this. Especially my parents *koff*. Cuz otherwise, they'd go "I thought we agreed with no-boyfriends-in-school deal?" Oopssss. 

Hope my brother n sister doesn't read this too, cuz otherwise they'd report it to my parents. Demm. 

I've been in a relationship with guys with the same age, younger, and older. Chinese, Malay, Dusun n a mixed. Slender, muscular and a teddy-bear sort. Rich, moderate and a self-dependent. Muslim, non-Muslim and a convert.

Of all the ex'es..my favourite?
well..it's hard to say, cuz i accepted their proposal the first time was due to certain factors that i like in them.

The reason i accepted the 1st was because he was cute.
OK..i know i sound so girly~ n he was the Hiphop sort of person. I was sooo into hip hop at the time. Mann..it's funny to recall such thing. His 1st gift for me was a box of Guylian chocolate. I felt awry cuz...Alamak..sayang nya nak makan. It was lip-licking good OK? Try Google-ing it.

My 2nd...well...he proposed when i didnt even know him. So I rejected his 1st proposal. Sorry dude. Became friends. n after a while..*Ehem* u-know-what-happened~. During the time, i like guys who were smarter than me. Well hello~..budak MRSM kot dia. For me, smart guys are cute. He plays chess. n right instantly i'd go Yup..he sure is the clever sort. Plus, he knows how to cook. What a bonus!


Thirdly, err....ehmmm...errrrr.......dunno how i actually approved of him. But it was a non-serious relationship. Guess i approved him cuz i was sympathy? Sorry dude..Besides, i did tell u i was already in a relationship rite?


Fourthly. I was never the sort of person who approves just anybody. To get into a relationship, i felt it is important to get to know the person first. But somehow, i chose to break the rule for the first time. I accepted his proposal even before i actually know who he was, apart from his name. Blame my friends for setting me up. But he was handsome OK. Real good-looks. Tall n slender. But because i violated my own conditions, we didn't get along quite well for long.

Fifthly, well, he was good-looking. He play soccer hell good. OK..i fall for guys who play soccer easily. Damn, now everyone knows my weakness. He was good in arts as well. (Bonus!) j'adore guys who could draw. Another weakness shown. Well, this guy here was almost my Mr.Right. But things happen, we broke up. (Full stop).


It may be a full stop for a love relationship, but not for a friendship. See, that's why i still love my ex'es. Love in a sense of Mann...we could really be good friends. We're still in contact tho...only just sometimes.
They've only gone their way. Found a new girlfriend. Be happy. One just got lost in action.
Anyhow...when i see them happy, i feel the same. Cuz they're my friends. and that's exactly what friends should do.
I'm glad i'm not the sort of person who feels like suiciding after a break-up. Cuz i still have God, family and friends. God I'm so thankful.
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Well, these all happened back in the school days. But right after school..i was back to being single.
I just don't think i'm capable of being in a relationship right now. I'm just gonna have to wait. Wait till one day, another guy exists, and that he'd be the last and only guy for me.






In case you're wondering if its really Nabila a.k.a Yong who is writing this entry, well YES. It's me alright.