Who am i?

I was chatting with a friend just now. Until it rang my bells.

Some people question why i don't have a boyfriend. Reasons?

Lame answers:

• i'm not beautiful
• i'm not clever
• i'm not successful
• i'm not rich
• bla3

Okay, i'm not supposed to say that. Otherwise, it will all point to my parents saying how unsuccessful they are in creating the best product of : ME. 

 

So blame me for being choosy instead. I've rejected guys based on these lame reason(s):

• Shy guy = rejected

Ohmygod, can't believe that's it. Two guys have proposed, and me rejecting them based on the above factor? I didn't even give them any chance. Who am I? I bet after i rejected them, they'd say, "I bet i can get girls better like her (indicating me) anytime at anywhere else." Oh God, now i'm scared that one day, if i ever fall in love with a guy, that guy would do the same to me.

Okay, cool down everybody. Actually, that wasn't just the reason i don't have a boyfriend right now. To be honest, i'm just not ready for any commitments. I do miss falling in love. But at the same time, committing to the wrong person worries me even more. 

i have a guy in mind that i miss. But surely he can't be mine. Again, who am i? Thanks for the words of wisdom friend. (God i'm such a coward).